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The Waiting Game

On October 2011, I was in the middle of a big decision. Perhaps one of the biggest decision I ever made in my entire life, and it involved a great deal of waiting.

I’ve made other big decisions before,

Graduated from college and got my first job on August 2005, got married on January 2007, got accepted and joined another company on August 2007, received positive pregnancy on August 2008, and decide to deliver Bintang by C-Section.. and the latest, received my home-loan/mortgage approval on November 2011, and officially moved to our (so-called) OWN home.. on January 2012.

November 2011, prior to receiving my mortgage approval, my life was like hell. I couldn’t enjoy eating, sleeping, and all I can think about was “that” house and how much I want to stay there IMMEDIATELY.

I got excited to almost every telephone call, and got mad when it came from someone else and not the bank PIC, I got up earlier in the morning, and was anxious the whole entire day, …

and now I am in that same situation, all over again.

Two weeks ago, I got called for a job interview. I love the job description, and the challenges that I shall face, the amount of new learning experiences and opportunities that I will get.

Everything went smoothly, and last week, I received their offer by telephone with a salary which was a little bit lower than what I expected. My immediate reply was to ask for increase and a moment to think about their offer.

Several days later, I called them and requested to check their employment contract. I’ve seen it, felt OK with it, I even agreed to the salary they offered, but then the Branch Manager replied,

“Actually, our country manager is still very busy and I haven’t been able to reach him by phone and e-mail. He’s the one who is in charge to prepare your contract, and we both have to wait for his decision. I will deal with this matter next week, and give you a call once it’s all clear.

I felt like jumping into a very deep well, and said to myself “there’s still a possibility that I fail this, this is very hard to handle.”

And today is Monday, the beginning of a new week.

I can only pray that the country manager have decided to pick me, prepare my contract, and invite me to come and sign the contract. My prayer is so focused, and this has filled my head so much, since Friday.

Help me God.. To accept whatever it is You have planned for me!

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We all know the universal law of parenting, that says: “how we raise our kids will have a tremendous effect on the kind of adults they grow up to be.” But parenting is not an easy task, although it’s neither rocket science, all you need is 90% love and 10% patience.

Last night, I watched this amazing show “Extraordinary People” on BBC Knowledge. It’s about kids, parents, teenagers, who lived with physical disabilities, but were blessed with an extraordinary will, to fight, even stronger than normal people. As I watched the show, I felt such a great humiliation towards myself. Because I, as a normal person, haven’t been grateful for the life I have, and for not having enough patience (sometimes) when dealing my normal son. I watched those moms with disabled children, and they all looked very beautiful, not because of the make-up or cosmetics, but because of their beautiful heart.

For me, as a normal person, who have a normal kids, I sometimes fell into the hole of mompetition where everyone is bragging about their kids’ superior ability and insult other moms’ parenting decisions which are different than most of us. I regret it so much, and now I am certain that there’s nothing more waste-of-time than taking part in that stupid game.

Good parents struggle to prepare their kids for a tough, competitive world, instead of prematurely telling them (and telling everyone else), “You’re all winners.” ~ Bryan Caplan

One thing I learned from the show, is that all those kids are very lucky. They may have physical or mental disabilities, and may have an uncertain future ahead of them, but they have such a loving and supportive parents. They are very blessed for being surrounded by brothers, sisters, moms, dads, grandparents, uncles or aunties who can love them the way they are. Not all kids can enjoy those privileges, especially normal kids whose parents are highly ambitious, perfectionists and never praise or consider their children have done well and deserve an unconditional love.

If parents with disabled kids can give their children so much unconditional love and patience, then it should be a shame for us, parents with normal kids, to not being able to do the same. Let’s love our children the way they are.

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